Pregnancy & Infant Loss Support: About Us

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Our baby was due to be born on October 20, 2011. We were filled with excitement for his arrival, although we didn’t know the gender until he was born. After nearly two years of trying to conceive Blake, it felt like our prayers had finally been answered. On the evening of October 15, my water broke, and we headed to the hospital anticipating a normal delivery. We were so eager to welcome our baby into the world.

The nurses quickly made preparations but struggled to find a heartbeat. After several attempts, one nurse looked me in the eye and said, “I am so sorry.” Despite our fears, we held onto hope that she was mistaken and patiently awaited my doctor’s arrival. When she came, she swiftly performed an ultrasound, and our worst fears were confirmed as she searched for a heartbeat. There was none—our baby was gone.

On October 16, 2011, at 5:30 a.m., Blake Joseph Wagner was born. The room was silent as they took my baby away. The only sound was the footsteps of the doctor carrying him. The nurses offered to let us hold him for a moment, and they brought him back to us for our final goodbyes. Blake was perfect in every way. Shawn and I cherished those moments at the hospital, but when we left the next day, we felt utterly empty in every sense of the word.

In the days and years that followed, we drew closer to God. Through His word, He provides comfort and hope to mothers and families who have faced this devastating loss. I have gathered a few Bible verses and reflections on what I learned through this experience, hoping to comfort others with the comfort we received.  We hope that families find solace in this book and the scriptures contained within Mark 10:14, A Devotional of Comfort and Hope for Those Suffering from Miscarriage, Stillbirth, or Infant Loss.

Until we meet again.

Pictures taken by Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep photographer. Thank you, Jill. For your kindness, we will be forever grateful.